Claudia and I met with our UWM supervisor yesterday. All three of us reflected on how the holidays weren't very restful due to crises in our region as well as worldwide with bombings, persecution, illness and death. We understand that God is in control and has an eternal purpose in every minute aspect of
His-story, yet I wrestle with His perfect wisdom vs. my inconsequentially small perception on all He allows to pass. I'm tempted to react immediately and try to "fix" each little thing, instead of first seeking what He's at work doing so I can follow. In our conversation he shared a Psalm that encouraged me immensely:
"O Lord, my heart is not lifted up; my eyes are not raised too high; I do not occupy myself with things too great and too marvelous for me. But I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with its mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me. O Israel, hope in the Lord from this time forth and forevermore." -Psalm 131
The Holy Spirit, through Scripture, helps us correctly orient ourselves in the universe, and reminds me I'm not the center... God is.
He clarifies the hard work we're called to, whether in US offices, medical clinics & classrooms of Honduras, pastoral trainings in Guatemala or Costa Rica, ER's the Dominican Republic and those grieving around the globe. God's spirit is present each of these places (as well as infinitely more). Yes, we're called to work hard. To engage with exhausted arms, trembling legs, taxed braincells & resources, insanely hard work! Yet in the midst of it all, we're called to deeply, intimately trust God. To, as the Psalmist says, be as a "weaned child with its mother..." To trust His guidance and receive His rest even in the midst of the raging tempest.
So, as I reflect on the tears, struggles and pain that are mixed with the joys and victories, I begin to see a pattern of His hand at work, not meerly now and then, but surrounding and penetrating each and every moment of our existence with purpose and hope. It's for this reason I then thank God... for God.